Seriously

I don't know how much more of this I can take. All of this from tonight:

Full Tilt Poker Game #7187787536: $24 + $2 KO Sit & Go (54645794), Table 4 - 25/50 - No Limit Hold'em - 5:35:01 ET - 2008/07/12
Seat 1: eimajedward (5,585)
Seat 2: tough_horns (3,215)
Seat 3: Crab Man 12 (2,190)
Seat 4: PSYCHOPARANOID (1,910)
Seat 6: dv8shand (940)
Seat 7: JaahasPaahas (6,425)
Seat 8: mclarich (6,185)
Seat 9: pokvir (13,130)
PSYCHOPARANOID posts the small blind of 25
dv8shand posts the big blind of 50
The button is in seat #3
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to mclarich [As Ts]
JaahasPaahas folds
mclarich raises to 175
pokvir calls 175
eimajedward calls 175
tough_horns has 15 seconds left to act
tough_horns folds
Crab Man 12 folds
PSYCHOPARANOID folds
dv8shand folds
*** FLOP *** [5s Kc Js]
mclarich bets 400
pokvir calls 400
eimajedward has 15 seconds left to act
eimajedward raises to 5,410, and is all in
mclarich calls 5,010
pokvir folds
eimajedward shows [7d Kd] (Against TP7K I'm actually ahead)
mclarich shows [As Ts]
*** TURN *** [5s Kc Js] [Kh]
*** RIVER *** [5s Kc Js Kh] [4d]
eimajedward shows three of a kind, Kings
mclarich shows a pair of Kings
eimajedward wins the pot (11,820) with three of a kind, Kings

Full Tilt Poker Game #7187853917: $20 + $2 Sit & Go (54648093), Table 1 - 40/80 - No Limit Hold'em - 5:47:23 ET - 2008/07/12
Seat 2: mclarich (3,295)
Seat 3: VincentMastro (3,290)
Seat 5: Ffransis (1,350)
Seat 6: MeezySolid (850)
Seat 7: DurtyBurd83 (375)
Seat 9: Zuko27 (4,340)
VincentMastro posts the small blind of 40
Ffransis posts the big blind of 80
The button is in seat #2
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to mclarich [Ad Ac]
MeezySolid folds
DurtyBurd83 folds
Zuko27 has 15 seconds left to act
Zuko27 raises to 160
mclarich raises to 560
VincentMastro folds
Ffransis folds
Zuko27 calls 400
*** FLOP *** [7d Js 5s]
Zuko27 has 15 seconds left to act
Zuko27 bets 1,240
mclarich raises to 2,735, and is all in
Zuko27 calls 1,495
mclarich shows [Ad Ac]
Zuko27 shows [Ts Jd]
*** TURN *** [7d Js 5s] [6s]
*** RIVER *** [7d Js 5s 6s] [3s]
mclarich shows a pair of Aces
Zuko27 shows a flush, Jack high
Zuko27 wins the pot (6,710) with a flush, Jack high
mclarich stands up

Full Tilt Poker Game #7187045240: $11 + $1 Sit & Go (Turbo) (54640748), Table 1 - 200/400 - No Limit Hold'em - 3:30:48 ET - 2008/07/12
Seat 1: Korrea (1,310)
Seat 3: Position 15 (3,130)
Seat 5: geminis100 (1,700)
Seat 6: mclarich (3,420)
Seat 7: gerdim (2,060)
Seat 9: fuzzyiam (1,880)
mclarich posts the small blind of 200
gerdim posts the big blind of 400
The button is in seat #5
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to mclarich [Kh Ad]
fuzzyiam folds
Korrea folds
Position 15 raises to 3,130, and is all in
geminis100 folds
mclarich calls 2,930
gerdim folds
Position 15 shows [Ks Jc]
mclarich shows [Kh Ad]
*** FLOP *** [4c 4h 2s]
*** TURN *** [4c 4h 2s] [Jd]
*** RIVER *** [4c 4h 2s Jd] [6h]
Position 15 shows two pair, Jacks and Fours
mclarich shows a pair of Fours
Position 15 wins the pot (6,660) with two pair, Jacks and Fours

I'm so close to withdrawing most of my bankroll. A $1500 downswing via $20 SNGs and $.50\$1 cash games is just fucking ridiculous, even for a donkey like me. It's not worth it to me to keep pissing away hundreds of dollars like this; my lifestyle can't support it. Yes, I did have a could hands hold up, and even cracked AA with KJ with a 5-outer on the river, but when it comes to getting my money in with the best hand, this has been standard for about a week now.

I've pissed away a $3000 bankroll once before, a couple of years ago. I'm not letting that happen again. If my bankroll dips to $3100 or below, I'm cashing out $3k and starting from scratch again.